Lying on the bed, listening to that calming music and that slow, serene voice, helping me give a peek into my past life…
I was trying to listen to what the voice was saying… and slowly and slowly, I was feeling lighter and lighter. My forehead, my eyes, my face, my jaws, my shoulders, my arms and hands, my stomach, my legs and feet; all were getting relaxed. That’s the beauty of taking someone into trance!
And soon, I could feel that blaze of energy emerging out of nowhere. Okay, let me elaborate.
It goes like this… all our lives, we live with our conscious mind controlling our actions while our subconscious mind relaxes down there, just watching our every action like an audience. A couple of times though, it helps us by giving us messages of certain kinds… déjà vu, coincidence, you name it.
But, as we enter into a stage of trance, the opposite happens. Our conscious mind goes in the back, becomes an observer while our subconscious mind becomes the controller. And what happens when the subconscious mind becomes the controller? Let’s find out.
So, I could feel that blaze of energy, which evolved from nowhere, suddenly took control of my body. My jaw was the first victim. I could feel my jaw opening on its own as if it had its own little brain. And then, I started shouting, crying out loud, trying to let out the anger I had suppressed in the past.
As a frame of reference, it was the same feeling as when I had Marijuana for the first time! The same energy that controlled my body then was in control now. What was it?
Soon it was moving, from my jaw to my shoulders, to my hands, to my feet. And it felt as if I was getting angrier and angrier. How much anger had I suppressed?
And as it was over, I felt something really strange. I was trying to protect myself. From whom I don’t know. But it felt as if I was a woman and someone was taking advantage of me! And then I covered my face and started crying. I was crying because someone has stripped me off of all my pride. And while in this memory, I could not see who that someone was.
Soon this feeling was gone and now I felt as if I was seeing some white light. Some people who were all white near me. Although it was all blurry and I couldn’t see anyone’s faces, I just felt that that was what I saw. I’m still not sure.
And within no time, I felt that someone towards my left was giving me a hand and I was trying to take hold of that hand but I could not. It felt as if that someone was calling me, it felt as if I reach that hand, it would be it. That if I reach that hand, it would be the end of my path. Such an amazing feeling! But I could not reach to it.
And soon I felt as if I was moving away from that feeling. Away into another memory altogether. I was a small child. I don’t know what my age. I remember I kept on guessing whether I was 9 or 11. I could feel I was sitting on a chair, looking ahead but I could not see my surrounding or anything near me. It was all blurry. I was playing with my hands, moving my hands here and there. My toys were near me and I was playing with my toys. When I was asked where my mom was, I started calling my mommy but she was nowhere. I thought she was hiding and it was a game but she did not come. It seemed I was abandoned. I remember when I was asked whether it was a past life or a present life, the child kept talking to himself. It said, “Past Life, Yes; Present Life, No” a couple of times and I was shaking my head along.
And before anything else could happen, I was taken out of that state.
I don’t know whether that was a past life or what that state was, what I was looking at, whom I was giving my hand to, who that woman was and who that child was, but what I do know is that whatever I have written on this page is not a story I just made; I HAVE experienced it and it has happened to me.
I’m sure I will go more into this and would explore more and more in this area. Let’s see what happens in the next such session.
